So. Beautiful.

I’m very excited for this HORRIBLE 2011 CRAP-ASS year to be OVER!!! I woke up ready for anything and I get a text message from my “guy best friend,” you know the one who threw me away in the garbage like I was trash. Yeah him! The one who I stood by through everything when everyone else laughed at him. The one who means a lot to me, but to him apparently I was never a friend because he just tossed me aside so easily. And for what reason? Because you have feelings for me and you think I rejected you? That’s complete bull!!! I did NOTHING! And I will not let you make the last day of this SHITBAG year another problem to lead into the new year! I called you constantly and texted you and worked so hard just for you to ignore me and make me feel PATHETIC and I told you I give up! So why do you choose to text me now? What could you possibly have to say to me now?!? And then when I answer back, you still don’t say anything to me? What the fuck?!? Don’t ruin my happiness!

Either be real and talk to me or stay out of my life forever! Its that simple! Friends come and go everyday but your friendship means to much to me to have you play with it! So pick what you wanna do because its hurtful!

The person you were once so close with. The best of friends, but they changed slowly over time. Drifted away. Day by day. Month by month. Now you two hardly speak to one another. When you do eventually get to talk to them after the longest time, you have no idea what to talk about. Speechless. Wondering what happened between you two.

HEYYY DARLINGGG!!! i read your letter/tumblr post to me the day you wrote it, but for some reason no matter what i do, it’s not letting me respond. I didn’t even wanna write this because you probably wont ever read this :( BUT im going to try anyways. HIIII im doing very well. I miss you SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!! But i hope you are having a blasttttt because if not, then you should come back now and be with me! Thank you! hahaa. So I haven’t started my winter classes yet lol its still too early. I start on Tuesday -___-, so not excited about this bullcrap at all.

Anywaysss, I’ve been hanging out with friends all week. I got to hang with Carmen, Migdalia, and Virginia. I haven’t gotten to see Anna yet :(. But omgoodness I REALLY wanna be apart of a flashmob!!! And you’re one of the only people who will do it with me. I asked Miggy and she’s down so it’ll be AWESOMEEEE!!!! It’s not until May but I’M SUPER EXCITED!!!!!

Tomorrow is NEW YEAR’S EVE and im SO FREAKIN GLAD BECAUSE I WANT THIS HORRIBLE SHITBAG OF A YEAR TO END AND END NOWWW!!! No more tears or drama this year. I want to start over. Im happy right now. Im doing my own thing and spending time with the people in my life who actually make me happy and who make me smile. I went to work, and I’m just relaxing and it feels great. Too bad, next week it all goes down the drain with school, BUT i’m going to stay strong and hope for the best and stay happy so this year will be different.

MY EPIC WISH MADE ON 11/11/11 AT 11:11:11 CAME TRUEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

even tho it did, im still never telling anyone what it was.

So about our “friends,” yeah im doing okay with Virginia. i feel so much better talking about everything with her. i just saw her again today. we’re working on our friendship so im happy. she keeps telling me that ruby is like pretty depressed! she’s not even motivated to do anything. she doesn’t go to school, or work, and she barely leaves her house and honestly i don’t know whats wrong and neither does Chin….but yeah idk. usually im the one who always checks up on her friends no matter what, but i don’t have her number or fb so i can’t even contact her. All i can do is pray for her!!!! i really want her to be okay. :(

As for your souvenirs, you never even gave me mine from last year when you went, so it doesn’t matter HAHA. you don’t have to bring me anything. But you got like 7 best friends so that should be your list. lol

ANYWAYS I LOVEEEEEEE YOU AND I HOPE YOU GET TO READ THIS, OR ELSE IT’S A TOTAL FAIL -_______-

First off HIIIII I hope you’re having fun!!! Second off, I have to go to the doctor tomorrow because I might have an ulcer. TO ADD TO THE LIST OF THINGS WRONG WITH ME!!!!! I’m very scared :’(